Things are looking up

I think things are getting as close to normal as they can be for now. We're still doing breathing treatments every few hours and suctioning as often as possible to help her eliminate the junk that's in her lungs. It's hard to completely let down our guard with the upcoming surgery hanging over our heads. We have to get her healthy again and keep her that way so we won't have to postpone. I always thought that hearing the doctors admit that her heart was causing the feeding problems would make me feel better, but it really hasn't. I still worry and obsess over everything. The pediatrician says I shouldn't worry about the fact that she won't eat, but I do. My natural instincts as a mother say that I should be feeding her something ... constantly ... even though she's getting continuous feeds through the tube. It simply goes everything I know.
She keeps on smiling, though. With all that she's going through she continues to be curious and demand attention when she thinks she's getting left out of the fun! Babies are amazing creatures!